Longing

Boundless and
Without fear
It fills me with
even more longing

It has the shape of aliveness
Of depth
Of intensity
And of a reality seldom encountered

It is more real than dreams
It creates dreams
And is at the very beginning of creation
It is the core of creation itself

Longing
There is no way I would want to get rid of it
It shapes life itself
Without which nothing would ever be

I am in awe and delight
In still contemplation and surrender
Being completely driven to follow it
And to live it to the fullest

It drives me to the depths of life
It drives me to discovery through experience
Of what is otherwise unknown
Or just suffered

It drives me to understanding
Beyond fear or doubt
Of what can only be lived
To be understood

It is understanding or madness
There are no other choices
And the truth must be some of both
For understanding alone is too limited

Words
They seem useless
But I am driven, pushed, demanded, ordered
To utter them

Being drowned into the deepest possible way of living it
So that I might get it even deeper
By being pushed to words
Into more understanding

Longing
There is no way I would want to get rid of it
It shapes life itself
Without which nothing would ever be …

Katy Pylyser 13-07-2014